The End of Seeking
Teachings in Spiritual Awakening
Are you seeking enlightenment?
If you are seeking enlightenment, I promise—you won’t find it. Not because it’s hidden or only available to advanced holy-men but because the act of seeking is what keeps it just out of reach.
Most people come hoping to escape difficult thoughts, painful emotions, or old memories. Something from the past lingers in the present. The weight of it colours daily life, and the fear it will always be there leads people to seek relief.
But something deeper often happens—sometimes before we even begin.
A quiet knowing emerges:
The answer isn’t in fixing the problem. It’s in stepping outside the whole story.
True peace—real, unwavering peace—doesn’t come from solving your pain.
It comes from discovering that what you really are is untouched by it.
That discovery is what some call a spiritual awakening.
It has nothing to do with religion. It’s not about becoming better, healed, or more successful, it is about a shift in perception with your reality. It is about the letting go of the need to become anything. It is about letting go of seeking self-improvement, motivation, financial freedom, career advancement, and with this release comes complete unwavering peace and joy, which is what you were seeking in the first place - wasn’t it? Enlightenment isn’t something that happens to a person. It’s what remains when the illusion of the person dissolves.
Awakening
Awakening isn’t about becoming a better person, fixing yourself, or finding something outside of you. It is not associated with any religion. It is not a way to achieve your goals or desires.
It’s about discovering that the peace, freedom, and love you’ve been searching for—have always been here and releasing your need/want for anything.
Most of us live from a very small place inside:
The voice in our head, the roles we play, the beliefs we carry, the stories we tell about who we are and what has happened to us.
We think that’s who we are.
But awakening is the moment you begin to see:
You are not your thoughts. You are not your past. You are not your fear, or even your name.
You are the awareness that sees all of it.
It’s like stepping out of the storm and realising that above the clouds sky was clear the whole time.
This doesn’t mean your life disappears or emotions go away.
But you stop being pulled into them.
You see them clearly, and you start living from something deeper, quieter, more true.
Awakening is not about escaping life.
It’s about finally seeing life as it is—without the filters of fear, identity, or striving.
Can you help me advance my consciousness?
My role in your awakening is to show you that you were already enlightened that moment you arrived on this earth. Then many things happened throughout life that were emotionally uncomfortable, and you forgot. You created an identity for yourself, changed it over and over again as you adopted new wisdom, and became attached to that version of your identity. You protected yourself from your pain, and then dedicated your life to creating a world in which your pain isn’t triggered. Then you realised that controlling your whole world so that it doesn’t cause you pain, in itself causes you pain. Then you came to me to seek the ultimate removal of the pain. This is what I teach.
I am a mirror for your awakening. I reflect back to you the blockers that stand between you and your enlightened self and guide you home to it. I hold the lantern and point you in the direction of coming home to yourself. I teach you to surrender to your pain which is ultimately the only “path” to enlightenment.
Some would call this:
Spiritual awakening support
Consciousness coaching
Awakening guidance
Spiritual transformation support
Non-dual guidance
Ego death support
Awakening coach
Presence-based therapy
Spiritual surrender support
But all I am doing, as your Spiritual Teacher, is walking you home to yourself and then going beyond that. This isn’t a journey about becoming something. This is about unbecoming who we are not, about undeceiving ourselves. In the end, it’s ironic. We don’t end up anywhere other than where we have always been, except that we perceive where we have always been completely differently.
Are you enlightened?
No. I am not anything which is where my name Anatta comes from, which I often use to refer to myself, instead of “Natalie” which has a strong identity attached to it. Enlightenment isn’t something that happens to a person. It’s what remains when the illusion of the person dissolves. All I can tell you is what I experience. I am present entirely in this moment. No past moment or future moment exists for me other than the bare minimum required to show up in this world - be places at certain times, manage finances, and prepare dinner for example. Other than that I am only here now.
Over time, I have let go over and over again of my “samskaras” through meditation and intention to do so in every moment. Samskaras are the subtle impressions, imprints, or conditioning left on the subconscious mind by past experiences. These impressions don’t just stay in the mind—they shape your behavior, perception, identity, and even how you respond to life before you’re conscious of it. They come up as uncomfortable emotions or physical feelings. My samskaras still arise daily, and I let go immediately which allows me to maintain presence.
I have release identity and attachment if they arise. I do not want anything and if I do, I see it as part of the illusion of the ego and release it immediately. I do not dislike anything and if I do, I release it; for me, everything just is. If I feel an emotion I let go now.
To enlighten one must surrender completely, even to the identification of a body because that denotes separation from the source of consciousness. I am not ready to go that far but one day I will close my eyes and my soul will return to the source of consciousness, as will yours.
